The Relapse Process

Incomplete, you completed me But who am I kidding in reality you ruined me I miss my innocence, wish I could fix this Gone beyond repair, desperations all that’s there Incomplete, you completed me But who am i kidding in reality you ruined me Incomplete you completed me OH I still think of you often, even if you left me here to rot and I’m trembling caught up in the worst days, I forget why i’m here in the first place I’m trembling caught up in the worst days, I forgot why I even fucking chose to stay I’m in pieces, I can’t keep myself together, so i’ll Forget about myself, why should I make an effort? I’m coming undone, use me as you will Pull my strings, until my self esteem rebuilds The guilt the guilt oh I know the drill I’ll apologize for everything until time stands still Until time stands still, use me as you will I still think of you often, even if you left me here to rot and I’m trembling caught up in the worst days, I forget why i’m here in the first place I’m trembling caught up in the worst days, I forgot why I even fucking chose to stay Scathing takes shape in my brain, fathoming the senseless and the insane With all that takes place rationality doesn’t feel the same Psychotic break desperation is all that I know Holding on to hoping I can eventually let go I’m stressing over all the things I can’t control Bending over backwards attempting to feel whole My mind is wandering off tonight, my thoughts they decompose This vacancy too comfortable for me to let go