I Was Hoping

[Verse 1]

As we were talking outside, it was cold

We were shivering, yet warmed by the subject matter

"My wife is in the next room

We've been having troubles, you know

Please, don't tell her or anyone

But I need to talk to somebody"

You said, "Wouldn't it be a shame if I knew how great I was

Five minutes before I died?

I'd be filled with such regret before I took my last breath"

And I said, "You're willing to tell me this now

And you're not gonna die any time soon"

And I said, "I haven't been eating chicken or meat or anything"

And you said, "Yes, but you've been wearing leather"

And laughed and said, "We're at the top of the food chain

And yes, you're still a fine woman"

I cringed

[Chorus]

I was hoping

I was hoping we could heal each other

I was hoping

I was hoping we could be raw together

[Verse 2]

We left the restaurant where the head waiter, in his sixties, said "Goodbye, sir

Thank you for your business, sir

You're successful and established, sir

And we like the frequency with which you dine here, sir

And your money"

And when I walked by, they said, "Thank you too, dear"

I was all pigtails and cords

And there was a day when I would've said something like

"Hey, dude, I could buy and sell this place, so kiss it"

I too once thought I was owed something

[Chorus]

I was hoping

I was hoping we could challenge each other

I was hoping

I was hoping we could crack each other up

[Verse 3]

I too thought that, when proved wrong, I lost somehow

And I too once thought life was cruel

And it's a cycle, really

You think I'm withdrawing and guilt-tripping you

I think you're insensitive, and I don't feel heard

And I said, "Do you believe we are

Fundamentally judgmental, fundamentally evil?"

And you said, "Yes"

I said, "I don't believe in revenge

In right or wrong, good or bad"

You said, "Well, what about that man that I saw handcuffed

In the emergency room, bleeding after beating his kid

And she threw a shoe at his head?

And I think what he did was wrong

And I would've had a hard time feeling compassion for him"

I had to watch my tone for fear of having you feel judged

[Chorus]

I was hoping

I was hoping we could dance together

I was hoping

I was hoping we could be creamy together