The Motivation Behind Writing "Everything"

Over the last eight years, I think my aspiration has really been about being as transparent as I possibly can be. The more visible I am, whether it's literally about my finances or about my emotional world or my spiritual beliefs or my vulnerabilities or my, or my, you know, empowered moments, frankly, the more peaceful I've become. There's less to hide. I feel like there's so much energy that goes into hiding and secrеcy, you know? And I certainly still believе in privacy in moments, but there's a big difference between privacy and secrecy. So secrecy is like fear, you know? Trying to hide from each other and feeling separate. And you know, being transparent and, and non-secretive is just really a courageous act. It's a loving act. So it also relates us to each other because I feel like if we were all ready to put everything out on the table, we'd be really shocked to see the thread of continuity that connects us all, you know? I think the biggest suffering moments for me are when I really do feel separate from people, so. I also think about the fact that Whatever it is that I'm known for or frankly that anyone's known for, let's say someone's known for their strength, you know? I usually can be assured that the opposite flip side of that is something we're terrified of being, you know? So if someone's typically known for, you know, they're being really outgoing and huge and this big presence in a room, you know? Maybe their biggest fear is that they're boring and that they're dull and they're nothing, you know? So my thought is that if we were to embrace that we're huge and that we're also boring and nothing, then we have access to whichever one we want and we're not compulsively driven to be the opposite of that which we're terrified of. So, you know? That's what that song means to me. It also just really points toward what unconditional love would feel like. Like when I hear that song, it shifts my cells to the point where I actually can feel what unconditional love feels like just listening to it. The first couple of weeks working on this song, I couldn't listen to it without sobbing. So it's only lately that I'm able to just perform it without, you know, having to stop. Because it really does encapsulate what the last few years of my life has been about. It's really been about not only trying to attract into my life people who love me as unconditionally as the song describes, but for me to accept those parts of myself, you know? So, not wanting to be this perfect, good, happy person, but also not wanting to sort of drown in my own depression and cynicism, you know, and having everything in between be okay.