It Was Built to Break

Break

Nothing changes when you get what you want
There is no growth without loss
This is the price of understanding
Pain is the cost

Burn the field, salt the earth
Drive your picks into the cracks
Don't stop (don't stop)
Don't stop until there's nothing left
Until you're nothing

This is how it feels to start over
To have your foundation disappear (disappear)
I can't speak, I can't breathe
Apologies can't pull out the knife

I was afraid of being a list of symptoms

To be summarized in terms and phrases
To not be special
To not be different
To be a definition (definition)
I was afraid of pills
I was afraid of help
I'd do anything to not admit
I was killing myself

I had so much pride in just getting by
I was too selfish to see that my conditions are not unique
My whole life, I made my emotions my identity
When I learned there are people just like me
The world got brighter
And a little less lonely

It will all end in tears
These parts of me will always linger
Until the day I fucking die