Haunted

They said I'm okay
But lately I'm feelin' this pressure in my chest (Yeah)
Got a hand with a grip into my neck (My neck)
I don't even wanna tell my friends
I just wait for the day that everything will squeeze
And I run out of breath (Ah)
I'm just stuck in the shadow of mind
Speeding and screaming alone when I drive
The music on blast ignorin' you telling me
"Take one of these, you'll be fine," so
You can feel everything or nothing at all (What?)
You just got me like a zombie, and tell me I'm better off (What?)
But I never knew taking a pill would end up in a loss (What?)
But it's goin', and I really just want everything to pause
Slow down, let me get a hold on
Anything, I don't even need a whole lot
Haven't felt like myself in so long
Thinkin' 'bout the end again, man?
That's so mom
Shit, maybe it's in the blood (Yeah)
Self-medicating to make it so better
But better is never enough
I'm cut from that cloth, I shouldn't have judged
I shouldn't have run, afraid of the me that I see in your love
But you probably know, out of these lows
Better than most, I'm stuck in a body I cannot control, so

They tell me I'm okay
And this pain will go away
They say, "Keep your head up"
Keep holding on

But if I'm being honest, it feels like I'm haunted
Stuck in the past, I can't live down
Lost in a moment, wish I wasn't broken
But it's hard to breathe when it's all burning down

Burning down, burning down
Burning down, burning down
Burning down, burning down
But it's hard to breathe when it's all burning

Love big, but I'm heartless (Nah)
I don't know who to blame or to start with (Nah)
Never felt that strange being raised in apartments
Hangin' with adults, strung out up late
Lookin' for a little bit of cocaine in the carpet
Now I got a darkness that I feel armed with, but
I'm always on guard, so I don't talk much
I just hide behind the drink in my cup
T-t-too much to love, I'm fucked up and numb
So duck, jump, and run when I self-destruct
It's known to cause damage
I go titanic, sink in my panic, lost in my sanity
Leave me by my lonely, I don't feel like me lately
Don't sleep, but I feel like I'm dreamin'
Ghostly figures pass and act like they know me

I can't be the only one who's got this goin' on
My hands holdin' on to anything I have left
I've been wasting all my time chasin' my soul
Stuck in this body I can't control

They tell me I'm okay (I'm okay)
And this pain will go away (Go away)
They say, "Keep your head up"
Keep holding on

But if I'm being honest, it feels like I'm haunted
Stuck in the past, I can't live down
No way to hide it, why would I fight it
When it's easier to drown?
Just going through the motions now
No control in my emotions now
Lost in a moment wish I wasn't broken
But it's hard to breathe when it's all burning down

Burning down, burning down
Burning down, burning down
Burning down, burning down
But it's hard to breathe when it's all burning down