MAYDAY

Mayday
I feel like I'm broken lately
And I don't know if you can save me
I've been tryna tell them this is not a drill, not a cry for help
Baby, call it in (baby, call it in)

I keep my head down a lot lately
It's not the shoes, I'm a dude who has never been used to a lot of safety
I feel the floor shaking
Tryna figure out an exit strategy that's got the least amount of hearts breaking
'Cause all the damage done
I can live with, but I can't stand to look at you while cryin' knowing I'm the one
That coulda' let you know when I began to feel the fall
When every color in my painting started getting dull
When every substance indulged in and in the darkness I'm pulled in, I don't even try to fight it, I just let it win
The work is getting compulsive, every action impulsive, obvious, and all you want is me to let you in
I just wish it didn't take this much
Hard to be authentic when you've been afraid to love
Flyin' high, didn't think of how to land it safe
Now I'm finally callin out but its just to say

Mayday
I feel like I'm broken lately
And I don't know if you can save me
I've been tryna tell them this is not a drill, not a cry for help
Baby, call it in (baby, call it in)

Yeah, I think I'm lonelier than most, livin' in my head, it's hard to find somewhere to go
So I'm treating all these songs like it's therapy in hopes to find the reason that I sabotage and tell you that I don't
Like I start to build a life and when everything lookin' wonderful
I stop it at the scaffolding, only cover what's vulnerable
An orphan mentality, family makes me uncomfortable
The closer that I get to you the more I can deflect, it's so crazy

Yeah I know it's true but I do it still
If you can't help me now, I know nothing will
Analyze tryna manufacture something real
Using anything just to change how I feel
Now all I feel is broken, heart made of porcelain
Tryna put the pieces together without forcin' it
And fakin' to fit what I think the perfect person portrait is
But you deserve the world not an emotional contortionist
Yeah, bending the truth a true art
So they love what you make but don't know who you are
And I only show you when its far too late
When there's nothing left, there's nothing at risk to say

Mayday
I feel like I'm broken lately
And I don't know if you can save me
I've been tryna tell them this is not a drill, not a cry for help
Baby, call it in (baby, call it in)

Mayday
I feel like I'm broken lately
And I don't know if you can save me
I've been tryna tell them this is not a drill, not a cry for help
Baby, call it in (mayday, mayday)

Mayday
I feel like I'm broken lately
And I don't know if you can save me
I've been tryna tell them this is not a drill, not a cry for help
Baby, call it in (mayday, mayday)
Mayday