Disco

Reaching without reason
Faces made of air
Iron drums in the cellar
Are calling up the stairs
I return to the dirt
And then I rise again
Turn the soil over
Close the box I sent

In the van dry heaving
Pop your aching heart
Go to clear your mind out
Pick your life apart
Sobbing in the bathroom
As I'm walking home
Follow me to my apartment
Drag me out the door

Slip into the back room
I'm training for tonight
Colors of the rainbow
I'm running out of fight
I can smell your perfume
But I can't hear your voice
Telling me to go home
But I don't have the choice

I don't care what you said about my friend
I don't need to know if you're struggling to breathe
You threw your drink at me as I was leaning in
But I still asked you if you wanted to leave
I talked in the mirror like I'm trying to start a fight
And you're not scared of anger anymore
And I dance in an empty house

Patron saint of wisdom
Is sitting down the hall
My only proper instinct
Brings me to her altar
I can feel hot breath
Dripping from above
Voices like an ocean
Drunken and screaming

Tell me what you are
Tell me what you came for
Do you wanna dance?
Did you come to hide from death?
The feeling of knowing
That you will never see this place again
Happiness is leaving
I heard that's fallen through her wrist

You're not scared of my anger anymore
So I don't think it's gonna be able to work itself out
I don't know what I dreamed about the other night
But I count time in decades now
Ushering me further down
Grabbing me and shaking me awake
I daydream about melting into water
And I feel like drowning
And I think in impossible fantasies
And I believe in whatever you think is best
And I'll be sitting here the rest of the night
Waiting for you to call