Optimism (As a Radical Life Choice)

The pain is back in my chest again
Holding me down like a high school friend
Says, "The worlds about to end
You best start swimming"
You said, "Anxiety is the theme of all our lives these days"
Can't even have my coffee without exploiting someone
Or making another millionaire or billionaire
What would it take to be happy?
I'll probably start with the money

It's the clear backpacks
It's the two new fire exits
I'm buying a beer
Don't want to think of where I'm running
If another asshole takes a shot
It's the city burning down while I stare at a dirty pic you sent me
And I'm hiding in the desert, but I taste the ocean in my snot
Just trying to find my footing
I know you're sick of walking

Don't take me out back and shoot me
I know my circuits are faulty
Now I've only ever been a kid
Pointing out dead dogs on the road
Take me down in a landslide
Help me weather this high tide
I'll wear you out
Waiting for me to implode
But don't take me out back and shoot me

But I'm done dying on the inside
Now that everything is dying outside
The sky is letting go
Of holding on like a crying child
Armageddon on my mind
I'll try to smile all the time
Like hell's a construct that I need
To make amends or keep myself clean
And yes, I'm aware it's fleeting

Don't take me out back and shoot me
I know my circuits are faulty
Now I've only ever been a kid
Pointing out dead dogs on the road
Take me down in a landslide
Help me weather this high tide
I'll wear you out
Waiting for me to implode

Because the ocean's gonna rise
The river's finally gonna overflow
And leave us stranded
Try to make it to the other side
But there's a crack in my lifeboat
And I'm sinking
Well, I'm sinking, won't you sink with me?

We're sinking!

Take me out back and shoot me
I know my circuits are faulty
I've only ever been a kid
Pointing out dead dogs on the road
Take me down in a landslide
Weather this high tide
I'll wear you out waiting for me to implode

Don't take me out back and shoot me
I know my circuits are faulty
And now I've only ever been a kid
Pointing out dead dogs on the road
Take me down in a landslide
Help me weather this high tide
I'll wear you out
Watching the world implode
But don't take me out back and shoot me