Mess of Me

My charade, my charade
My grenade, my grenade
My charade, my charade
My grenade, my grenade

Stay on the inside
Don't let your secret out
Reveal the landslide
That's always pouring

Down, down like the rain
Can you see me drownin'?
Drifting away
They'll never understand

Why I disappear
The voices that I hear
Calling me into the darkness

I'll breathe in, I'll breathe out
So sick of holding it down
Where no one sees
This mess of me
It's okay, I'm alright
Even though I'm dyin' inside
I'm never free
Of this mess of me

A test for demons
Conceal this double life
No rhyme or reason
For the war behind these

Eyes, don't get too close
Do you see what I see?
Haunting like a ghost
I'm never free

I'll breathe in, I'll breathe out
So sick of holding it down
Where no one sees
This mess of me
It's okay, I'm alright
Even though I'm dyin' inside
I'm never free
Of this mess of me
This mess of me
No, I'm never free

My charade, my grenade
I will lie for you
I will follow you until the end
I'm ashamed, I'm afraid
If they knew the truth of my abuse
What would they do?
What would they do?

My charade, my grenade
If they knew the truth of my abuse

I'll breathe in, I'll breathe out
So sick of holding it down
Where no one sees
This mess of me
It's okay, I'm alright
Even though I'm dyin' inside
I'm never free
Oh, of this mess of me
I'm never free
Of this mess of me