Paint

[Verse 1: Ekoh]

Here we go, a simple question

Got it on repeat something like

They may never know who you are

If you just keep smiling

So I just keep smiling...

Like everything's gonna be alright

Some times I just wanna go back home

And crawl back in the bed and go back to my childhood

In two thousand and two (2002), I could still dream

Didn't need to

Never feel so see through

Scared of the present, past is a lesson

And now I wanna sequel. Everybody thinks they know me

That's true, why am I so lonely?

On the outside looking in on my own reflections

Like where've you been

Hey it's me again, nice to meet again

Mister "I don't want your help, I don't need a friend"

Think you got it all figured out, you don't

If you think time is gonna help you change, it won't

Both know, we can never get so low. Hide them with the thoughts

Which you write but you don't show

It's all good 'till you lose yourself, we both know the way that feels

Put it on your back so stressful, hold tight, don't let go

Break those thoughts to let go. Through that home you grew up in

It's not so simple

Look at them, so quick their judge, hate, admire and love

Anything and anyone you paint your picture of...

[Chorus: Josh Rabenold]

I'm gonna paint you a portrait, I'm gonna cover up the flaws

You'll only see what I put in the frame, hanging on the wall

I'm gonna draw you a picture, of a man who has it all

You'll never see any of the pain, hanging on the wall

[Verse 2: Ekoh]

I'm tryna grow with the changes, rearrange my focus

Keep the surface clean but I mean when I change a view it's like

Moving a paintbrush

So we all get the things that we don't wanna show

It's not easy to, come clean with you when I don't mean to be rude

But my skin's so uncomfortable. I just...

Wanna run, chase the sun around

Life's been so dark in this town

How to tryna get up when you're so fucked up and become so used to being down

When the drugs stop working, and the pain's still present

Not as strong as I claim to be, I'm just...

Still here to deliver this message

Need to turn back, don't deserve that

Eventually this picture'll turn black and I'll be ghost

You wanna seek everything that I tried to hide 'cause I don't confide in you

You just don't get it, I'm too different so pathetic

Don't play but I feel so indebted, so ugly disconnected

Put it all for the world to see I'm just, Don't wanna be told I'm not enough

Stuffed all of the problems down

And I colored this cave with some broken crayons

It's all pain in the process, I'm like "I'm fine I got this"

Change the topic, here it is. I'll paint the picture to leave you with

[Chorus: Josh Rabenold]

I'm gonna paint you a portrait, I'm gonna cover up the flaws

You'll only see what I put in the frame, hanging on the wall

I'm gonna draw you a picture, of a man who has it all

You'll never see any of the pain, hanging on the wall

[Verse 3: Ekoh]

One day we can watch this fall apart and you'll see me

What's the point when I'm scared to move and I feel so low compared to you and I'm sinking

I don't cry for help, I use the map, I draw myself and still pretend my love is not a broken compass

'cause I know the feelings were still often felt in my numbness, here waiting for this to develop

And living my life up under this umbrella, the color is gone, I know that it's wrong

But I can't stop this, nah I can't face this truth

When I break it down and it never shows just know I did this all for you...

[Chorus: Josh Rabenold]

I'm gonna paint you a portrait, I'm gonna cover up the flaws

You'll only see what I put in the frame, hanging on the wall

I'm gonna draw you a picture, of a man who has it all

You'll never see any of the pain, hanging on the wall