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The thoughts that circle my head are far from innocent

And the worst part of it is you

Can’t change me

Can’t save me

This world will swallow me whole

Ever since that night I’m afraid to fucking feel alone

The wounds turn into scars as I am ripped apart

Sensations lost as I’m thrown right back to the start

For fucking years I’ve escaped this

Feeling hurt feeling trapped inside of this disconnect

The steering hand of your demons

Made it’s way to your heart to make you cold as shit

I can’t breathe

Put me out of my misery

I can’t sleep

Please take this pain away from me

My own existence makes me sick

Do you know what it feels like

To feel nothing at all it leaves you dead inside

I know I missed my introduction

But what the fuck do you want from me

It all happens in a second

This trauma hurts more than it looks

Please do not pray for me

The repetition of sorrow has broken me

Where the hell do I even begin

The days just start to bleed together

I’m starting to lose track of myself and feel as if I’m a enemy

I’m losing sleep at night knowing I’m the one who made it through this

I never knew I could live with so much weight on my chest

The darkness is rising, I feel it deep inside

I’m going insane living in this constant state of agony

Agony

The wounds turn into scars as I am ripped apart

Sensations lost as I’m thrown right back to the start

I’d be forced to feel alone If I could feel at all

Tear me apart, feast on my skin my backs against the wall

What am I supposed to do?

Now that I’m all alone