trapped in torment

Things are crazy lately

Haven't been myself down on the daily

Neck deep digging till I'm weak

The devil's on my shoulders while I'm at his feet

Stressed out like 24/7

Can't get a grip on my aggression

This tension never lessens

This is my depression session

Gripped tight with old wounds

Mouth shut, silenced and reduced

This trauma acts like a noose

That binds closer and closer the more that I move

And what do I do?

This rage that I feel results from abuse

And what do I do?

It's been years and you still refuse thе truth

There's no closure

With thе pain that stems

From my own anger

Or my wish for revenge

You think you've gotten out

But then they throw you back in

There's so much I can't say

So much that I can't undo

You think I wished for this?

Like I wanted to be abused

Fuck you

For blaming me for all of your mistakes

You've played the victim for far too long

While I burned at the stake

And what do I do?

This rage that I feel results from abuse

And what do I do?

I'm peeling at the flesh cause there's nothing to lose

There's no closure

With the pain that stems

From my own anger

Or my wish for revenge

You think you've gotten out

But then they throw you back in

There's no closure

With the pain that stems

From my own anger

Or my wish for revenge

You think you've gotten out

But then they throw you back in

You put the pressure on me to speak

While you sulked in your own misery

You hate yourself and you blame me

So in hell we'll both take a seat

I'll be the fucking devil if that's what you want me to be

I'll be the fucking devil if that's all you want from me

Just to let me be

I'll be the goddamned devil motherfucker

I'll be the goddamned devil if that's what you want from me