i’m not alright

[Verse 1]

And I've been looking at these photos, tryna figure out

Where that light went, how long I've been without

And all I know is that we save that hurt

And it takes so much strength just to say those words, yeah

I got these old mixtapes with all these songs on them

I made for you, but you never really listen

And now I wish, these days, we never stopped talking

Yeah, I guess it's been a minute

But, I'm looking around and everyone here is bringing me down

Like, we used to have a voice but it got drowned out

And all of my friends, we used to dream about money and a career

But now the fear has got me freaking on my birthday every year

And I've been feeling like the time is wasting on my mind

I'm wearing this disguise like, "Everything is fine," but

All of y'all don't know nothin' about me

[Chorus]

And I don't know how long this story goes

But you don't like this story anyway

So I'll just leave this CD on your doorstep

Another chorus that you'll just get bored with

And for once you might have shit to say

But I'll stop you anyway

[Verse 2]

And mom drinks too much, that still don't change

I'm too far gone, I can't be saved

And all these pills that I take just make me sick

This life been hitting me in waves, but—

Maybe I'll just swim against the current

And I keep falling for the ones who wanna hurt me

I used to think "I wanna grow up so quick" 'till I got here

And the walls caved in, now everything's so blurry

And I'm feeling like the days, are wasting me away

And everyone keeps telling me that I'ma be okay, but

All of y'all don't know nothin' about me

[Chorus]

And I don't know how long this story goes

But you don't like this story anyway

So I'll just leave this CD on your doorstep

Another chorus that you'll just get bored with

And for once you might have shit to say

But I'll stop you anyway

[Bridge]

I'm not okay

And that's okay with me

I'm not alright

I never claimed to be

I'm not okay

And that's okay with me

I'm not alright

I never claimed to be

[Chorus]

And I don't know how long this story goes

But you don't like this story anyway

So I'll just leave this CD on your doorstep

Another chorus that you'll just get bored with

And for once, you might have shit to say

But I'll stop you anyway