Halfway // Happy

Blank face, emotionless, anxiety renders me useless

And i’m stuck between a rock and a hard place

Six feet deep, feeling guilty over past mistakes

I’m burnt out, the light in my eyes flicker

The anger pent up fucking grows bigger

And I feel comfort in downing this liquor

Till I feel it slowly tear up my liver

Depression will run its course till i’m dead

Till i’m numb enough to know there’s nothing left

A living corpse untill I wait till the end

Does it ever get better? No I just pretend

In my head no one else can relate

In my head I don’t see the better days

I’m seeing so many others happy

And all I ever wanted was a taste

Happiness never came easy

Longed for that feeling believe me

It’s hard to find i’ve been searching my whole life

I come out empty handed every fucking time

What’s the point? I’m tired of trying

Misery is much more inviting

No more hiding, these smiles aren’t sticking

Hope is slipping, optimisms fucking missing

In my head no one else can relate

In my head I don’t see the better days

I’m seeing so many others happy

And all I ever wanted was a taste

The color nothing, i’m deadly dull

Lack of serotonin is the result

Feeling the steady decline

Manic episodes at an all time high