Death Perception

I’ve about had it with my antics

Overdramatic, and manic i’m unbalanced

Bitter romantic and problematic

Might as well kill me while you’re at it

Defeated and hopeless

I’m sure most of you know this

Sedate me maybe then I won’t feel so empty

Regressing to cope so that I can feel something

Defeated and hopeless

Tragedy at your service

Anxiety and anger you make me nervous

Come without warning and then leave when you feel like it

Killing my mood, killed off the smile

Please why won’t you take me away for awhile

I can’t resist, this helpless bliss

Mental demons hard to dismiss

Flirting with disaster, a still born bastard I don't matter

With nothing to show, a loser, a head case, with a headspace still sinking below

Still sinking below

I’m sinking below

Sinking alone

I wanna be somebody else

Sinking below, replace me

This mess i am

I wanna be somebody else

I wanna feel something inside me

Rebuilding

I wanna be somebody else

I wanna feel something other than guilt

Am I gone? I can’t tell

Doing all that I can to lose myself

Mental demons hard to dismiss

Troubled senses we coexist

It’s raining it’s pouring, the reaper is calling

And here I am still drowning

Needles and pins // Needles and pins

Insecurity builds, overthinking begins

Tell me when all of this ends

Dealing the devil’s hand again